Tuesday, December 11, 2012

I apologize for the absense. I haven't been feeling much like weight loss lately. I am maintaining, so I'm not backsliding.
I hope to have my shit together and back at it soon, by the first of the year.
I came with the intention of sharing what's going on, but I can't seem to.
I hope all is well with everyone, enjoy the season lovelies.
Be back soon, I promise.

Wednesday, November 21, 2012

Geek out with Thanksgiving data

As I'm sitting here waiting for the extremely long work day and subsequently work week to end, I read this on Yahoo! Interesting geek tidbits from the article:
3. We Consume an Average of 3,000 Calories at Thanksgiving
From the butter volcano in the mashed potatoes to the mishmash of sweet potato casserole and cornbread stuffing slathered in gravy, each American is estimated to consume anywhere from 3,000 to 5,000 calories at the average Thanksgiving meal.

But the biggest calorie bomb on your Thanksgiving table? [Drum roll, please.] Pecan pie! It packs a whopping 503 calories a slice (compared to 316 calories for pumpkin pie and 411 calories for apple pie). Where does this seemingly innocent pie get all of its calories? Sugar, mostly, and copious amounts of pecans, which harbor lots of fat. But on the bright side, much of that is "good fat" (including omega-3s) and pecans contain more antioxidants--compounds that sweep up tissue-damaging free radicals--than any other tree nut, according to a study in the Journal of Agricultural and Food Chemistry. Pecans also provide notable amounts of zinc, a mineral that may help combat colds. In second place for calorie-packed dishes, we have sweet potato casserole at 460 calories a serving, and in third, don't forget that wine adds up fast: 382 calories for three average-size glasses.

5. You'd Have to Run a Marathon (Plus!) to Burn Off Your Thanksgiving Calories
If you want to exercise to "erase" the calories from turkey, gravy and everything else you ate at Thanksgiving dinner, I hope you have a comfortable pair of running shoes. A 150-pound person would have to run an average of 29 miles to burn off 2,800 calories. If you weigh more, congratulations! You get to run less. But whatever you weigh, clear your calendar and get out your reflective running gear because you are going to be busy (and winded).
lol - way to justify that piece of pecan pie, Yahoo! contributor, by throwing in that it's "FULL OF OMEGA-3'S!" *sigh*


You'll feel a lot better at the end of the day if you keep a good head on your shoulders and eat reasonably, stay away from anything with "CASSEROLE" included, and have ONE piece of pie. (Not pecan, obviously.)

Monday, November 19, 2012

Weigh-In 11/19/2012

Previous:    173.4
Today:        172.6
Loss:           -   0.8

At least I'm on a downward trend again!

It's a short week, and I am excited.

I visited my dermatologist this morning who consulted with me about skin removal (and removed some rogue moles). He supports my decision to start surgery proceedings at the end of next year, and he made sure to note my skin irritation. I love him. :)

I've decided to focus on 150, and if I get feeling too skinny by then I'll stop.

My relatives have just switched from "you need to lose weight" to "you've lost enough, you need to stop." Ahh - the joys of the holidays.

Happy Thanksgiving loves!

Thursday, November 15, 2012

Revelation that most of you knew.

Yeah, I'm slow sometimes.

It seems that a week of overeating not only lead to a weight gain, but it also lead to something more heinous: hunger.

I'm flat hungry this week. And that's so very bad  because since I've been eating 1200 calories every single day for at least 14 weeks, I managed to acclimate myself. I wasn't getting hungry, or hunger pains, or thinking about binging.

Now, I'm back to square one again and hungry.

No wonder diets fail.

I've been good, no straying from the 1200 per day, but it's once again rough.

Tuesday, November 13, 2012

Monday, November 12, 2012

Post-Vacation Weigh-In 11/12/2012

Previous:    168.0
Today:        173.4
Gain!:           +5.4

Yuck, lol. I expected it, but it still sucks. I am not sure how much is water / flight gain and how much is actual weight gain, I'm hoping this week will show how much weight I actually gained. Either way, I know I deserved a gain - as you will see from the following pictures. I walked a shit ton compared to the last visit - because I finally could. It was nice to walk 8+ miles a day (I loved taking the pedometer) and still having energy.

I had a great time, I have nothing to complain about because I was on a vacation while so many others are having it rough right now - I shall sucketh it up and throw on the liquid diet for a few weeks and get back on track.

She was amazing.

Because let's face it, when you get right down to it I'm childish.

My  flight seat belt not only fit, but had lots of leftover!

It's entirely made of... chocolate.

The beautiful Venetian canals.

Yep, that's right, fountain-o-chocolate.

Frequenting a dark little Irish Pub.
I start a volleyball league tonight. Slightly nervous, slightly happy that I get a chance to work off this weight this week coupled with my liquid breakfast and lunch.

Missed you all, I will work diligently on reading back and commenting!

Friday, November 2, 2012

Weigh-In 11/02/2012

Previous:    169.2
Today:        168.0
Loss:             -1.2

Weigh-in is, obviously, early. I will not be taking a scale on my trip, and I can't be certain I'll even post. So, this morning was the last chance I had to weigh-in until Monday, November 12th. It was nice to see 168, I won't lie.

I fully expect to see a weight gain next time. It's not because I am actively planning to eat badly, but flights always seem to mess with my water retention or something. And I'm sure I'll eat poorly at some point, too. And consume too much sodium.

Seriously my lunch is amazing, just thought I'd share.

I love you guys, talk to you when I get back. Don't be offended if I don't make comments on your writings until next Monday. :)

Thursday, November 1, 2012

60 Days.

There’s 60 days left for 2012. (Give or take a few hours, of course.) I have 60 days to finish up whatever I want to accomplish for the year, and I have 60 days to decide what my 2013 goals will be.
In short, here is what I hope to see on January 01, 2013.
·         160 on the scales (loss of 8 pounds in 60 days – will be a total of 80 pounds for the year).
My mother told me the other day that if I get any skinnier than 160, I’ll just look gaunt and sickly. I have news for all my family who think you are helping out by giving your opinion – you’re not. I did this by myself. I think I should get to decide when I’ve lost enough weight. Next year I’ll be incorporating 6 days of exercise with the maintenance plan, so it’s going to take some getting used to. I don’t even know what weight I should be, but I think I should be given some freedom to experiment with that on my own. And let’s face it – I can think of worse fates than having to add a protein shake or two a day to gain weight. I don’t think I’ve ever had that problem, haha.
·         Some good freaking starting progress pictures and measurements.
One of the biggest regrets I have on this JOURNEY J has been the fact I didn’t start out with good measurements or pictures. Looking back, I realize how easy it would have been on the 1st of the month to just take five minutes to measure and picture myself. But I didn’t do it. Now that I am moving into the maintenance and toning phase, I really want to be able to see the muscles grow, and I think it will help motivate my lazy ass to exercise.
·         Have read Refuse to Regain (by Barbara Berkeley, MD) – thanks Karen. One of my biggest fears is regaining this weight, or returning to my old ways. This really seems like a book that will be very beneficial to me.
That’s it – that’s my list for the last 60 days. I am still formulating my New Year’s Resolutions. A lot of people think setting those goals are hokey – but it was a New Year’s goal that set me on the path I’m on now, so I think I’ll stick to it.

Wednesday, October 31, 2012

Dieting 101

Just so you know..if your diet looks like the following, you are not following a diet plan. Or a healthy plan. Or any other plan than "whatever the fuck I want."

*Eggs with Ham and Gravy
*Indian buffet food, including salad with Ranch dressing
*Coffee with Cream
*Chicken Piccata

I don't have to use my eyeballs to tell you - this is NOT 1200 calories in a day. It's just not.

And if you have dieted for ten years and still don't realize that this isn't diet food, then you should just give it up and make yourself some muffins.

Oh wait, you did.


Happy Halloween - I couldn't resist.

Monday, October 29, 2012

Weigh-In 10/29/2012

Previous:    172.0
Today:        169.2
Loss:             -2.8

Apparently having a bad case of strep all week coupled with overdrinking on Saturday night and subsequent sickness associated with that, I lost another 2.8 pounds. My weigh in for yeterday was actually 168.8, but like I said that was after my night of Halloween debauchery so I was lacking fluids, lol.

Halloween party was fun! It was freezing cold so I went for the warmer costume (A ceiling fan - shout out to my girl Kelliann for calling it!) I still suck at graciously accepting compliments. Meh, I guess it's a learning experience when you've never had to worry about people actively paying attention to you. Most of the time I was happy with being ignored, so attention is all kinds of wrong to me, lol.

Happy week - if I can make it through the hell week at work I'm going with family to Vegas on Saturday!

Monday, October 22, 2012

Weigh-In 10/22/2012

Previous:    175.0
Today:        172.0 
Loss:             -3.0

Yeah, I dunno what that's about, but yay!
Sick today, some sort of funk. Maybe that has something to do with the weird loss.
Happy Monday folks, I'm going to spend this one in bed.

Friday, October 19, 2012

Diet Orb

Check out the newest app that's causing an uproar in the dieting world.

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Did you know that your body responds to frequency? Your brain is actively signaling and triggering your body to either store or burn fat and calories. Your body is also influenced by outside factors like sounds and radio waves, something your phone already emits. Turn them all positive.

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DietOrb comes into play by giving you an advantage to jump start your body and give it the trigger it is looking for to make it want to lose weight! Activating DietOrb within the first 3 hours of waking, for 10 minutes, then again within 2 hours of the mid-point of your day – and you have a way to slip in what your body might consider to be 20 – 30 minutes of quality exercise, which boosts your metabolism and lifts your body state.

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Is there any disclaimer or warning with the DietOrb app?

Tuesday, October 16, 2012

Monday, October 15, 2012


You know how I know I'll always be a fattie at heart?

I still get depressed after eating dinner that I have to wait until breakfast to eat again.

FFL - Fattie for Life. I will always be on the defensive in regards to food, every day of my life, every minute, every second.

Oh yeah - weigh in today was 175.0, same from the challenge weigh in yesterday.

Friday, October 12, 2012

Quick Huge Thank You.

Thank you guys so much for the kind words yesterday, it was a hard thing to face and post.

If I can inspire anyone to finally lose the weight, it will be a huge amount sugar-free icing on my almond-flour cake.

There are a billion reasons to get it off, but when you are up at 6AM in the morning dancing crazily with your 3 year old to Dora's "Baila baila baila" and not getting winded or knees aren't cracking, it's a good day.

Have a good weekend, lovelies. I love you all - I'm off to see George Clinton in concert tonight!

And - just to throw it in there - here's outfit #2 that I bought yesterday, haha.

Thursday, October 11, 2012

Ugh. Ugh! I am mortified. And a NSV :)

Ugh. Mortification. I don't have my costume for this year, but here it is - in all it's glory. Fat me vs. Me now. On the NSV side, I'm a size 10. Enjoy!

Wednesday, October 10, 2012

Jumping on the Bandwagon.

After reading Norma's post about the fatties up-in-arms about not having a plus-sized sexy Ursula (blech..), I felt the need to jump on the up-in-arms bandwagon too.

Did you know they give surgery patients a food discount card? I find this so many kinds of ridiculous it's not even funny.

I can just picture the commercial now:

Announcer: Hey Jane Doe! You've just had life-saving, last resort gastric bypass surgery because you are so overweight it's caused diabetes, heart disease, and high blood pressure! What are you going to do now?

Jane: I'm going to GOLDEN CORRAL and get a smaller sized buffet with my certified gastic bypass patient card!

Don't get me wrong - I love the idea of being allowed to eat kid's meals, I think everyone should allow that. But the discount to the buffet.. no so sure about that one.

Tuesday, October 9, 2012

Prior Self Vs. Current Self

I had one of those lovely days yesterday where I was forced to face my past self. Friends & I are getting ready for our annual Halloween party, and we were supposed to cough up pictures from the years past. Lucky for me, a friend of mine forwarded a picture of me @ Halloween two years ago, and I was completely floored again about the way I looked. (I plan on eventually showing you guys, I want to get my current Halloween picture so I can side by side it..anyway..)

A co-worker overheard my conversation about my prior self, and he asked to see the picture. No big deal, right? Unfortunately, in my head, it was a big deal. This particular co-worker has never known me as fat. And because of that, little bells and alarms were going off in my head. I honestly verbalized the following, "You didn't know me this way. I don't want you to know what I used to be." I eventually caved and showed him the picture, but I was still all kinds of self conscious.

I can't decide if that was a logical reasoning or just my stupid woman head crap. Do you ever get nervous about showing your before pictures? Everyone else thinks I should show it proudly like a badge of honor, but honestly it's someone that I was that I am trying to bury.

Monday, October 8, 2012

Weigh-In 10/08/2012

Previous: 178.1
Today:     175.6
Loss:           -2.5

My weigh-in yesterday for the challenge was actually 177, but I worked my ass off yesterday and this morning it said 175.6, so we are going with that one. It makes me happy. Actually, it makes me kind of sad.

175 was my initial goal weight. Looking in the mirror this morning, I realize I am no where near goal. For the record, new goal weight is 160.. ish. But I don't want to be 160 and flabby. I want to be 160 and a rock.

So, here we go. NEW JOURNEY AHEAD! (I knew you'd love that, Norma.)

Tuesday, October 2, 2012

FMT ;)

1) I am 32 years old, weigh 178, and aspire to weigh 160 or less.

2) I am following a great plan, and this is what I do....Yeah it's my own plan, basically. I eat 1200 calories or less per day, currently run 3 miles per day, and most recently have added in the following insane workout for after my run which has added a whole new fun dimension to my exercise. I've promised myself 31 days in October of the cardio plus toning, so we will see how that turns out.

3) When faced with a decision of whether to eat something in moderation or abstain, I choose to....abstain. I'm a binger by heart, there is no moderation for me.

4) I am employed with an insurance company, doing highly covert operations. Something like that, at least in my head.

5) I have one demon-spawn cat, and she's named Kallie.

6) My favorite snack food is.... and I can eat this many of them....Ha! What a loaded question. My favorite binge food was Chocolate Zingers and Cool-Ranch Doritos back in the day. I could eat as many as 4 Zingers and a bag of CRD in one sitting, with a 20 ounce Pepsi. Currently my favorite snack food is apple slices with peanut butter.

7) I blog because it helps me, no other reason. I have met many people, hopefully inspired and helped some people, but this is accountability for myself. I get really nervous in public situations, and knowing that my results are posted for the world to read is encouragement. I get embarrassed if I fail.

Monday, October 1, 2012

Weigh-In 10/1/2012

Previous: 180.0
Today:     178.1
Loss:          -1.9

Finally, finally, finally in the 170's. It's funny, my initial goal was 175 way back when, haha. I don't know what to think now that I'm 3 pounds away from that. Lucky for me, my revised goal is 160, so I don't have to start panicking about the dreaded maintenance zone right now.

Thursday, September 27, 2012

The Co-Worker Dinner.

So this week (and for the foreseeable future) I’m out for work. Also this week, I started my iron pills. One in the morning, one in the evening.
Everything has been going peachy taking the pills, no big issues to note until the other day. I worked like a crazy mofo this particular day. For breakfast I think I grabbed a banana and a yogurt. I skipped lunch (I know, shame on me.) I took my second iron pill before going to dinner with the co-workers just so I wouldn’t forget it.

We go to this nice little Italian place and I order the small whole wheat spaghetti with tomato sauce. They order appetizers and booze along with their food. While sitting and socializing, I begin to feel really faint and sick at my stomach. Naturally, I think it’s because I hadn’t eaten since the morning, and resolved that my food would make me feel much better.

Dinner conversation moved on to asking about my weight loss. I proudly announced that as of that day I had lost 160 pounds. Congrats and cheers all around. Food comes – and all I can do is glare at my food. It looks repulsive. (It actually looked fabulous, but I was feeling so bad at this point.) I manage to talk myself into eating maybe ¼ of it. I then realize that it’s because I took my pill on an empty stomach, stupid me.

Girl beside me looks at my plate and looks at me, then exclaims, “You amaze me, you have so much self-control!” I just look at her and smile. What I wanted to say was, “It isn’t so much self control as I am trying to avoid blowing chunks all over you.”

Now keep in mind I announced earlier I lost 160 pounds as of that day. My birthday had also been on the 16th. My co-workers order me a birthday sundae and they all gather around to sing to me.

Really. You order the prior-fat-chick who is proud of losing 160 POUNDS a chocolate sundae? ARGH. Smile and be thankful. Smile and be thankful.

Miss you guys!

Monday, September 24, 2012

Weigh-In 9/24/2012

Previous: 181.0
Today:      180.0
Loss:           -1.0

Yeah, a loss finally! My body hates moving into new decades, though. I don't know why it is so adverse to change!

I am heading into this week with a firm belief that next weigh in will be in the 170's. It's about time.

Busy work times ahead (and behind me.) This too shall pass.If you don't see me commenting as much, it's not because I don't care, it's because I'm busier than a one-legged man in a butt-kicking contest.

Tuesday, September 18, 2012

Life & *Sigh*

I am quickly getting things together for a business trip, my test results came back negative (no blood in my poop! yeah!), and the scale is FINALLY moving in a downward trend. Beyond that, the following is my soap box for the day. :)
For real, folks. What is wrong with our society today? Why do we work so hard to find diets and miracle cures when all we have to do is eat less and move more? Limit our calories, make those calories nutritiously count, and get off our fat butt’s for at least 30 minutes a day, every day. Instead we require AND PAY FOR:
Weight Watchers
Slim Fast
The Subway Diet
The Starbucks Diet
The Cabbage Diet
Atkins Diet
90 Days to OMG! Diet
The Skinny Jeans Diet
LA Weight Loss

…and the list goes on and on. It’s called common sense, and everyone seems to be losing it these days. Big business, little business, hell even the shady at-home entrepreneurs are LAUGHING AT US. We spend our money to find that miracle cure, when we have it at our disposals for free all along.

*Sigh* /off soap box for the day

Monday, September 17, 2012

Hey you exercise junkies.

This whole week I've been diligently putting in my exercise time at night (running at least 3 miles), and I always see an elevated weight the next morning with the weight returning back down later in the day. Yesterday I exercised in the morning and I saw what I normally see - lowest weight this morning.

Is there something about exercising at night that makes you retain water or something? Or is my body just going through a dyslexic phase? I really hate mornings, I hate the thought I'll have to drag my dead weight out of bed an hour earlier.

Sunday, September 16, 2012

Weigh-In 9/16/12 (Challenge)

Previous: 181.0
Today: 181.0
Loss: -0.0

No change this week, a little frustrating because I ran 22 miles this week but...

I did cheat last night, cause its my birthday today. :) I had a piece of cake!

I'm leaving mid-week for a work trip. Strangely enough work trips usually mean a weight loss for me, which is nice.

Tuesday, September 11, 2012

FFS (...continued...)

I met with my doctor yesterday afternoon, after receiving the lovely phone call yesterday. Basically, they are testing for blood in the stool. I get it – and it actually makes me a bit nervous because my heredity with colon cancer, and that is why she is testing for blood in the stool. But I feel rather confident in the fact that it is my female issues, and I hope it isn’t anything to worry about.
It is going to be a horrendous test, 3 separate stool samples; it will probably take me a week and a half to do. Since losing weight, I’ve not been all that regular. *sigh* Anyway, after the test is completed I start on an iron pill twice daily; which seems to cause constipation issues, so I get to also take a stool softener. Oh my god. I feel old. I probably failed when I didn’t take a multi-vitamin to start with when I decided to lose weight.
The rest of the blood results came in, and they were actually pretty good. Here’s the run down (because by god I want to have a benchmark somewhere, even if it is after losing 150 pounds.)
Waist: 33 inches
Blood pressure: 110/70
Glucose: 98 (I realize this is on the cusp of insulin resistance, but I *was* insulin resistant when I started this way back when. I also had gestational diabetes. Although I'm not super happy with the high range of normal, I am happy that I am no longer insulin resistant. Now to just get it even lower for next year.)
Total Cholesterol: 122
HDL: 35
Triglycerides: 75
Iron Saturation: 3% (lolz – major fail. Most likely the cause of my dizziness when I stand up.)

Other than the iron issue and lowering the blood sugar, I need to raise my HDL somehow. The problem is the only way I’ve read to raise them I’m already doing: diet, exercise, not smoking. Any ideas?

Monday, September 10, 2012

FFS. (For F*ck's Sake.)

I deserve the genius of the year award.  (Said VERY sarcastically.)

So a couple weeks ago I get my physical, right? I made the incredibly stupid move of getting a physical DURING my period. Even though I told them about this problem at the exam, fast forward a few weeks and...

They are FREAKING out about my low iron levels. (You do remember I was menstrating, right?) Oh yes ma'am, but this is REALLY low. (Okay, what do I have to do? Pills?) No, this is so low we need to investigate. (Okay, more blood?) Oh no ma'am, we need 3 samples of stool....

W.T.F. I hate my life.

Sunday, September 9, 2012

Weigh-In (Challenge) 9/9/12

Previous: 184.7
Today:     181.0                 
Loss:          -3.7

Yeah, I seriously can't make this shit up, folks.

Many thanks to all the great comments yesterday. We all kick around until we find what works for us, I'm just trying to not go overboard and eat less than I should. I like high running metabolisms. They make me happy!
If my results don't make you believe that eat less, move more, drink water, control your head is the secret to losing weight and getting your food addiction under control then.. well, I don't know. It works.

Saturday, September 8, 2012

Never thought I'd have this problem.

So, I have a question that after a while of debating, I can't seem to answer myself. Lately I've been throwing around whether it is better to just eat when you are hungry vs. eating at the scheduled time. Let me explain.

My current calories in per day is 1200. I break this up into 6 meals: breakfast, lunch, dinner, & 3 snacks. The challenge has altered that just a bit, but not by much. I have been finding that at "snack times" I'm not all that hungry. In fact, I could go with skipping it entirely (some days. Now just for total honesty purposes there are some days I'm still famished after all 6 meals.)

The question is: Is it better to eat when you are hungry or should you stick to your schedule regardless of hunger? Much thanks for your opinions.

Friday, September 7, 2012

Do Not Do This.

"It’s ok to go off track here and there as long as we are conscientious of our choices at the time.."

If any of my dear friends ever leave me this comment, you should be drawn and quartered. I just thought I'd throw that out there to warn you.

But I know my buddies, they'll draw and quarter me if I consciously go off track. Now that's love. Love you guys!

Wednesday, September 5, 2012

Rather Boring, Somewhat Stressed.

Suprisingly, or maybe unsurprisingly, I don't have much to talk about. Al's challenge has made eating so simple that I haven't had to think much about food. I plan, I buy, I prep, I eat, I drink.

Luckily, or maybe unlucky for me, stress at work has been high for a little bit. I am feeling a bit overwhelmed and underappreciated. It happens, it passes, and the good thing is I'm going home every night and running it off. My second 5k is coming up at the end of October (assuming work doesn't interfere) and I should see a 100% improvement from my 1st 5k, no doubt.

It cracks me up how we perceive food these days. We had a potluck at work today, in which I provided the dessert and meat, however I brought my own lunch. I still got comments about how I was a food snob and they couldn't believe that I wasn't eating the food. Meh, you can't please everyone. I refuse to give up the 182 I'm consistently seeing on the scale this week for cake.

Monday, September 3, 2012

Weigh-In 9/3/12

Previous: 187.0
Today:     184.7                 
Loss:           -2.3
Great weigh in for the first week of the challenge, if I do say so myself. This morning, the weight was way down from that (182.8?!) but I consider that a fluke, and I am also using my challenge weigh-ins for my Monday weigh-ins so... We shall see next week. :)
Happy Labor Day! I am doing absolutely no labor, and it is fantastic. In fact, I'm about to run for fun. Crazy stuff going on.

Thursday, August 30, 2012

Crazy Day.

Crazy day, lots of meetings, doctor's appointment this morning for my biometrics.

Blood work pending, blood pressure 110/70, waist is 33 inches. (Oh my gawd!) She wanted me to follow her around all day and inspire her other patients, haha. She gave me a gold sticker star.

Then of course we sat around for twenty minutes discussing prozac in chicken meat. Something about giving chickens caffeine so they stay up all the time eating, then they discovered the chickens were too wired so they give them prozac to calm them down. Who knows, I smile and nod.

Challenge is going really, really well. Last night I had pasta, substituted broccoli slaw for the pasta, LOVED IT. If you haven't, try it. Great stuff.

Gotta run, love to all, have a good day! :)

Monday, August 27, 2012

Weigh-In 8/27/2012

Previous:               188.9
Today:                   187.0
Loss:                         -1.9
Today is Day #1 of Al's challenge. It is going well, menu actually looks about spot on what my norm is during a day.
187 is my weigh-in for the challenge, I will go ahead and use it for today's weigh-in. Not much difference this morning, although it was a bit smaller number. Does that count as padding my numbers? Haha. :)
On a side note, I am in love with Vanilla Almond milk. I'm attempting to eliminate a large chunk of dairy in the diet, and I thought I would give it a try. Fantabulous. That's all I can say.

Tuesday, August 21, 2012

TMI post - Avert your eyes now.

So, yeah. It's a TMI post about female things. Avert your eyes if you don't want to read it.

It is an amazing thing when you finally put the pieces of the puzzle together that your body has been leaving hints for days about. I've blogged about the following in the last week:

* My weight is higher at night than in the mornings, generally things aren't adding up scale wise.
* Yesterday I was so hungry I could have eaten a small bear.
* When I got home yesterday, the Mister said, "You look tired." And I felt tired.
* My normal destressing exercises were NOT working. In fact, I am pretty sure "NOTHING IS EVER GOING TO BE RIGHT AGAIN." passed through my head. For no reason - I've been having normal job-related stress issues, nothing major.

Yeah, it was my period.

Ever since I've been losing weight, my monthly... well, hasn't been monthly. According to my gyno, it's because my hormones are out of whack - basically it's pumping out hormones for a 250+ pound woman, and it is going to take time for it to regulate. As a result, I get my monthly about every 3 weeks. My last was August 2nd.. and now August 21.

It just doesn't seem right to get your period twice in the same month, haha.

The awesome part is - I should learn to listen to my body. It is telling me the things I need to know.

Yesterday, I was starving.

And I don't mean just a little bit - I was fighting hunger pains all day long. It wasn't being thirsty either.. I fit in 120 ounces of just water. I hadn't altered my exercise, I hadn't altered my eating. It was just one of those days.

I honestly had to stop at one point at work and just breathe - I haven't been this hungry in a LONG time. Who knows what was going on- probably something jacked up with my hormones.

Last night I went home and binged. I ate the following, in slightly higher moderations that normal: watermelon, brussel sprouts, peas, and salad (that included spinach, tomatoes, cucumbers, and green peppers, no dressing.) In the end I was finally satisfied, and I actually lost weight this morning.

Those are good binges. Those are the binges I will continue to have, lol. It just goes to show - no matter how much you think you have your eating under control, there's always going to be that one day.