Sunday, June 30, 2013


Previous: 161.4
Current:   161.8
Gain:            +.4

No real change on the weight front, and I'm okay with that.

I've been reading a lot of hate towards people who "eat like rabbits everyday" and never let themselves cheat, etc...

I think it's funny with all the different people in the world (ie: black, white, homosexual, heterosexual, etc.) that these people still think every one fits into the same mold.

I'm a binger, always have been. If I do not keep myself in check every day, I will become that blogger that gets the comment, "Oh, it's such a shame, she gained all her weight back and is now trying again.."

Last Friday I had a binge. I was feeling sad, but the binge wasn't a direct result of some emotional moment. (I'm sure it had something to do with my emotional state, but didn't come directly after an issue.) I decide to let myself have it, I knew I was doing it, so I just decided to write down what I ate. Here is the not so pretty side of an eating disorder:

2 boxes of cereal. (Already half eaten, but still finished off the boxes- Frosted Flakes & Cinnamon Toast Crunch)

2 sleeves of whole wheat crackers
Unknown amount of peanut butter
8 tootsie roll pops
2 cadburry creme eggs
1 crunch chocolate rabbit I found in the back of the cabinet from Easter
2 100 calories packs of something
2 vanilla cappuccinos

I can't even make this stuff up. All total, it was probably over 5000 calories. The next day, the scale said 169, and I was way more depressed.

And then, then I thought of one of my favorite quotes of all time: "Why do we fall, Bruce?" (Batman)...and the answer? "So we can learn to pick ourselves back up again."

Monday, June 17, 2013


A small post (credit for the title given to Jack.. :)) to show something that boggles my mind. The bathing suit.

And for the record - I enjoyed myself this weekend. I ate (and drank - as you can tell from the pina colada sitting there) that I shouldn't have. BUT...come was back to business. I ended up gaining 1/2 pound, some I think may be water retention but... well worth it. I enjoyed myself.

The picture on the left was taken at a very private beach house. The picture on the right was taken at a hotel Vegas-style pool party. My how times have changed, and I love it.

Friday, June 14, 2013

I should start a porn blog.

What the hell is up with that? Hahahaha! I am doing it all wrong, I should give up the weight loss blogging for porn blogging. You filthy animals! (And I like it!)

Wednesday, June 12, 2013

Avert your eyes boys, TMI question/post

Background: Since I have lost this weight, my cycle is on schedule. 25 days in between each, on the dot. My last cycle started and ended on May 27-June 1st. I am scheduled to start again on June 21st.

In preparation for my 10K, I have been ramping up my exercise the last two weeks. I have exercised every day, either strength training or running, sometimes both the same day. For these last two weeks, I have been spotting regularly. Nothing major, just notice it in the bathroom. Mostly it's darker color, sometimes it's red.

Is this a normal thing with exercising every day?

Monday, June 10, 2013

Weigh-In 6/10/13

Previous: 162.6
Current:   161.4
Loss:           -1.2

So, so, so, so, so close to the 150's decade. It will definitely happen this month.

So I'm watching Extreme Weight Loss (on DVR) last night, and I see the girl that ran the marathon at 200 pounds. Now I wanna suck it up and run at least a half marathon. I love that show.

Saturday, June 8, 2013

Outside confirmation that it's worth it...

I met a friend for coffee, she saw a friend of hers, and he texted her this afterwards:

This always increases one's swag and gives outside confirmation that this WHOLE worth it. Stick with it.

Thursday, June 6, 2013

Have you had gastric bypass?

At work, I had a meeting late yesterday with a perfect lovely woman. We were discussing business, and all of a sudden she busted out, “Did you have gastric bypass?” I think my chin must have hit the table in front of me; I was definitely rendered speechless for a few seconds.
When I regained my thought process, I told her, “No, I didn’t – but it’s funny you mention it, I have lost 180 pounds. How did you know?”
To which she replied, “Oh, I can tell through your neck and arms. Your neck is thin. (I have no idea still what this means.)” She herself had gastric bypass in 2001.
The really strange part is, I almost feel offended? It’s a little bit how I used to feel when someone asked how far along I was. It is definitely the first time someone that I didn’t know in my former life could spot the fact that I’ve had massive weight loss.

Monday, June 3, 2013

June 1st Weigh-In

Previous: 165.6
Current:   162.6

Loss:           -3.0

I can't believe it is already June, this year is really flying by. 3 pounds gone since my last official weigh-in, 177.4 pounds down, almost seeing the light of the 150's. Goal is somewhere in the 140's, actually probably 140, as I want to see 200 pounds lost.

I honestly don't have much to talk about these days - my eating and exercise has just become every day. Every. single. day.

Friday, May 24, 2013

Passive Aggressive Much?

Seriously I should check my email more, or blog every day, because I miss things while I do this life thing.

Quite honestly I think this is funny, I get hate mail for commenting on someone else's blog. (OH YEAH MY FIRST HATE MAIL! I feel like a real blogger now. Should I monetize this bitch?) And I'm a bully. But at least I'm a bully that lost 177 pounds, bitches!  (Sorry, that was supposed to be in my head.)

Sherry Carter
to me
1 day ago
Any questions you have you can just ask me! :) Let's do a little math here since you obviously need help with it. 

If I started at 278 and now weigh 229 that would be 20.5 pounds RIGHT! ;) If you read the story and stop following along with someone who  know's nothing. Actually read the page, you would see that I started over in Jan of this year at 257 and now weigh 229.5. Wait that's 20.5 lost right?! lol You people are amusing! Do you not have anything better to do than bash on people you don't know or intend to know? I am doing just fine with my weight loss at the rate I am going with it. But thanks for your advice! Your so very supportive God must have a special plan for your sweetness! :) Now you have a wonderful day doll! Go share this with your bully friends!

Weigh Ins:
5/2/07: 247 
5/24/13: 226.5

From May of 07 until May of 13, baby girl you've had a net loss of 20.5 pounds.  That's 6 years and 20 pounds. Do whatever fancy math you want, I'm taking that off your progress page.

Not only that, I don't recall giving you any advice - I recall commenting on Al's blog. But evidently you read his blog for advice? That's kinda funny.

By the way...
1.   A person who uses strength or power to harm or intimidate those who are weaker.
2.   Corned beef

I am neither, unfortunately. I may taste as good as corned beef, but I am not actual corned beef. Unless me laying it out there in black and white on Al's blog happened to intimidate you. Then I actually think that's your personal problem, as you feel bad for losing 20 pounds in 6 years. 

Annnd...since we threw God into that obvious weird passive hate-filled email (which to me screams hypocrite but then again I'm obviously not the best Christian, apparently I curse and am a bully):

The Bible admonishes us to not be oversensitive: “Do not take to heart everything people say, lest you hear your servant cursing you. For many times, also, your own heart has known that even you have cursed others” (Ecclesiastes 7:21-22).

Whether it's religion or weight loss, it always cracks me up when those who blow their horn the loudest usually know the least about the subject at hand.

Tuesday, May 21, 2013

Despicable Me 2

This is a totally shameful unrelated post to weight loss.

[Flo]Click here for some cool things about Despicable Me 2, and also you help me gain entries for some awesomely awesome prizes from a contest.

Yes, I just used awesomely awesome. It's that awesome.
/Shameful post off - Thank you. :)

Monday, May 20, 2013

Weigh-In 5/20/13

Previous: 165.6
Current:   165.2
Loss:           -0.4

Work has been kicking my rear since I got back from vacation, surprise! However I did manage to go on vacation and lose weight, that says something.

Anyone ever heard/read of Tim Ferriss? 4 Hour Body? I'll write something more detailed later, but I'm testing out his 30 grams of protein within 30 minutes of waking method.

I did not realize how hard it would be to reach 30 grams of protein with reasonable (IE: under 300 calories) calorie restriction.

Wednesday, May 8, 2013

Day #(I don't remember)

**Quick question** I am thinking about doing 2 5K races in one day - a mud run in the morning, a glow run at night. Is there anything inherently bad about that decision?

Onto the food - broken record, here!

Although I am going to switch it up for lunch. I know, I'm a wild child.

Did I mention, VACATION TOMORROW?! I am a bit excited. I probably will not post until I get back, mostly because my Blogger app is a piece of crap. I will try to comment, but I really don't know how cell service will be either. Long story short - be safe and I'll talk to you when I get back!

B: (250 calories)

S: (100 calories)

L: (290 calories)

I ended up eating all but the yogurt. I just wasn't feelin' it today.

S: (100 calories)

D: (400 calories)
Yeah, it's crooked. And I ate half the chicken before I took the picture. Sue me!

D: (80 calories)
Total: 1220!

Tuesday, May 7, 2013

I eat the same stuff everyday.

If this food picture thing has taught me anything, it's that I eat pretty much the same damn thing everyday. I'm really starting to think that's the secret to success, albeit boring.

B: (250 calories)
S: (80 calories)
L: (350 calories)

S: (100 calories)

D: (400 calories)
See? Same stuff. And just FYI - it's a Mexicobb salad from Chuy's restaurant. It *is* fabulous. The only thing I leave off is the cheese, and I pick salsa for a salad dressing.

D: (80 calories)
Total calories: 1260!

Monday, May 6, 2013

Weigh In 5/6/2013 & The Pics!

Previous: 165.9
Current:   165.6
Loss:           -0.3

So I failed. I emailed the pictures from my phone to my email as I was leaving the house this morning, deleted the file and realized I left the house so quick that it bounced off my wifi onto the cell signal and, well - poof goes the pictures. Not like I ate a lot this weekend, Saturday morning I had oatmeal (naw, really!) and then I didn't eat again until that night when I had a bowl of linguini with marinara (it was my 4 year old's B-day and I was running around like a chicken with it's head cut off... but no cupcakes for this gal!). Then Sunday I had oatmeal - again, go figure - and 2 veggie sushi rolls, a bowl of cereal.

Today, it's back to the grind, and - amazing! oatmeal for breakfast. Updates as I go along. (Although this will be my last day *sniff* since I did fail - but keep on at it, guys!)

Breakfast: (250 calories)

Snack: (60 calories)

Lunch: (300 calories)

Snack: (100 calories)

Dinner: (300 calories)
Total: 1010 - I just really wasn't feelin' eating today. :(

Friday, May 3, 2013

Day #3.

Breakfast: (300 calories)
Like I said, creature of habit. However, I was hella hungry this morning so I added 1/8 cup of rolled oats to my package. Thus, the calories bumped up to 300.
Snack: (None - I was still full from the extra oatmeal, lol.)

Lunch: (440 calories)
Grilled Chicken Caesar Salad - Panera
Unsweetened Tea
Snack: (Nada, still full from lunch- but I do have a picture of my afternoon shenanigans.)
Dinner: (400 calories)              
Jimmy John's "Unwich" Veggie with no mayo
Crap-ton of veggies (I'm sensing a pattern here...)

 Dessert: (80 calories)
1 K-cup Vanilla cappuccino (I swear no Maker's Mark included!)
    Total Calories:    1220! Done for Friday!                                                                

Thursday, May 2, 2013

Day #2

Breakfast: (250 calories, creature of habit)
1 package oatmeal
1 tsp dark chocolate chips
1 tsp peanut butter
1 cup unsweetened vanilla almond milk
Snack: (100 calories)
Self explanatory, lol
Lunch: (270 calories)
1 Lean Cuisine Meal
Crap-ton of veggies
1 Light Yogurt
(I always add in veggies to the LC meals, they never keep me full all afternoon)
Snack: (130 calories)
1 serving caramel rice cakes

Side Rant:

When you get on a healthy food schedule, and keep to that food schedule, a miraculous thing happens - (or at least it did for me) your body gets on a schedule.

For example (warning - possible TMI) since I have lost weight, my period is on a normal schedule. 25 days after the start of my last period, I start again. Now, while I'd prefer it to push the 28 day mark, I am VERY happy in that I can plan exactly when I am going to start. And I do, every time. It starts the same time, it lasts as long as it did last time, and I feel tons better during (no cramps, etc.) I was up .5 pounds this morning, and I knew why. Welcome to 25 days later.

Now - on the flip side - you realize quickly when you do stupid things. Case in point: I'm at Walmart the other day, perusing the aisles, and I come upon this-

Now you may be asking in your head, "Hey Rae, you've lost 175 pounds, why in this world would you feel the need to pick up weight loss tea? You obviously know how to lose weight." And the answer is - you're right, I have no idea, most likely because I'm fucked up in the head. Anyway, I buy this shit a few days ago, and have been drinking a cup a day.

BAD IDEA. Just so you know - for the first time IN OVER A YEAR (and that was because I picked up a virus for god's sake) - it had me running to the bathroom EVERY SINGLE DAY. It didn't happen concurrently (meaning I didn't drink the tea and immediately run to the bathroom - it took a few hours), so the slow me took a few days to put together - but I didn't have the tea today and miraculously (duh) I'm back to normal.

Moral of the story: listen to your body and don't do stupid things. But at least because I now have this nice symbiotic relationship with my body - I can spot and manage things easier now.

Dinner: (450 calories)
Mexi-cobb salad, no cheese, salsa dressing
Diet Pepsi! (a treat!)
Dessert: (80 calories)
1 scoop Lemon Ice from Culvers (delish!)
Total calories: 1280! Done!

Wednesday, May 1, 2013

Day #1

By the way, I will be updating this post as the day progresses, FYI.

Breakfast: (250 calories)
1 package oatmeal
1 teaspoon dark chocolate chips
1 teaspoon peanut butter
1 cup unsweetened vanilla almond milk
Snack: (80 calories)

1 Medium Apple

Lunch: (300 calories)

100 calorie veggie burger
80 calories whole wheat bun
Light Yogurt
Crap-ton of veggies with 2 tbsp Light Italian Dressing
Unsweetened black tea
Afternoon Snack: (100 calories)

2 1/2 cups of SKINNY POPCORN! (Honestly amazing stuff there..)

Dinner: (450 calories):

1 piece chicken picatta (no pasta)
Crap-ton steamed zucchini

Dessert: (80 calories):

1 K-cup vanilla cappuccino

 Total calories: 1,260 - And I'm done for Day #1!

Tuesday, April 30, 2013

Food Pictures!

I love Al, you guys know that. I also love looking a pictures on other blogs.

In following the spirit of the new challenge, I'm going to play along, only not get criticized along with it. ;) (although you guys can feel free to bash me about my eating.)

This is lunch! For inquiring minds, it's a crap-ton of broccoli, 1/4 of a large-ass potato (no butter), and 1/2 cup of pulled pork. (AKA: Leftovers) Yes, I count "crap-ton" as a measurement when dealing with veggies.

Friday, April 26, 2013

Weigh-In 4/26/2013

Previous: 167.6
Current:   165.9
Loss:           -1.7

Why hello there, lowest weight of my adult life. You sure are lookin' mighty fine....

I have been out of town for business this week, so I haven't managed to comment or email as much as I wanted. :( Sorry about that!

Vacation in less than 2 weeks... it can't get here quick enough...

Tuesday, April 23, 2013

What Have I Learned?

Due to a project I’m working on, (and rather excited about but can’t share quite yet), I have been asked to share the most influential things I’ve learned on this lifestyle change. I was put on the spot, so it was tough to narrow down 2 years of information gathered in a thirty minute conversation, but I decided that the things that came to my mind first were most likely the biggest items to mention. They were – in no particular order:
·         I weigh daily, and I track my food daily. If I go on vacations longer than 3 days (long weekend), I take my scale. If I see greater than a .2 gain, I go back to my food log and evaluate the day(s) prior. Was it too much sodium? Too many calories in general? Did I eat some funky new foods that I’m not used to eating? Did I eat past 6PM? I can say with 99.9% accuracy what went wrong. And then what do I do? Fix it, of course. It’s easier to make up one day of problems than a week.
·         The reason I think it worked this time? I am on no diet. I am on something that I just do, every damn day, just like I brush my teeth every day or I take a shower every day. Do I mess up sometimes? Just like I get too busy/forget (lazy) to take a shower or brush my teeth, I have slip-ups sometime, yes. I am human. The difference is, the next day – I brush my damn teeth. The next day, I eat what I’m supposed to, what I know is right.
·         I pre-plan my success, I never pre-plan my failure. Usually by Sunday, I know my schedule for the week. For example, I know that every day this week but Tuesday I can fix dinner at home, and I know what I’m going to eat. On Tuesday, if I’m going out, I either scan the menu of the restaurant, or I will resign to agreeing in my head what I am going to eat (vegetarian only, as an example). NEVER EVER EVER say: Well, it’s a special occasion on Thursday, so I’m going to eat the fucking lasagna with garlic bread and salad with full fat ranch because BY GOD I DESERVE IT! No. That’s a big no. Suck it up people; quit being whiners about not planning to eat lasagna. Does it happen sometime? Sure. But don’t plan on blowing it before the fact.
·         I am a bigger proponent of requiring the food industry to put their nutritional information out there than I thought. Do I think the government should tell me that I can’t have a 44 ounce big gulp? Hell no. That’s my decision. But when I make that decision, I should be informed about the calorie content in that big gulp. For any “chain” restaurants (over 20), I believe they should post their nutritional information somewhere. Now will that happen? I don’t know – so until that day, I will continue to choose to only visit restaurants that do give me the nutritional information. (Thank you, Outback, for finally jumping on board.)
·         To be successful for the long term, you must not only learn about how to lose weight, but also about what you are putting into your body. Your body is a self-healing miracle, and if you feed it and take care of it (aka: diet & exercise), it will respond in a marvelous manner.

Wednesday, April 17, 2013

What Time Do You Eat?

I'm such an article geek.

According to this article, not only is it important that you eat well (within your calorie & nutrition range), but also making sure you eat at the right time is important, too. After two plus years of experimenting, I can honestly say this is my exact eating schedule just about every day.

Breakfast: within 1/2 hour of waking, usually by 7AM.
Snack: 10AM, after I walk for 10 minutes (weather permitting)
Lunch: 12PM, usually aim for 30 minutes of walking
Snack: 3PM, again after walking 10 minutes
Dinner: 5:30PM, definitely try to get all my eating done by 6PM

Basically, 12 hours of eating & 12 hours of fasting. Do I have any scientific proof this works? No, but it seems to help me. It sometimes get screwy on weekends, but most weeks this is my schedule (I'm an obvious schedule geek, very OCD.)

Tuesday, April 16, 2013

Weigh-In 4/16/2013 & More

Previous: 168.7
Current:   167.6
Loss:           -1.1

Let's just say it's not coming off like it used to, but I am losing, and that's a welcome thing.

I have some exciting things going on in my life, and it is because of this weight loss. So from a former anxiety-ridden, stage-fright lovin', anti-social person, I want to tell you this: You can do this, and when you do this, amazing things will happen. You will find out that you aren't as anti-social or scared as you thought you were.

And you will realize it is not because of the fat, but it was because of your self-image to the fat you. I know that probably doesn't make sense, but your view of who you are is skewed because of your fat. So get rid of it, so you can finally realize that your worth is not tied to your fat. You are not less of a person because of your fat.

I recently was recognized for my weight loss, and I thought I'd show a picture. YOU CAN DO THIS. I know because I did, and I would have never thought it possible.

Thursday, April 4, 2013

Food Pron of the Day

Supposedly... only 360 calories.  The donut-bun must be smaller than their regular donut, since a regular donut is 260 calories.

It's being test-marketed in Massachusetts.

Monday, April 1, 2013

April Fool's Day Weigh-In

Previous: 170.8
Current:   168.7
Loss:           -2.1

Only it's not a joke! Finally back to weighing in, now that I actually have a weight loss to show. Or any weight change for that matter.

I figured out why chia seeds are a super food - it takes you half the morning to get them unstuck from your teeth so you don't even think about food.

Thursday, March 28, 2013

Love Yourself, but...

Always a but in there isn't there?

Love the body you have.. BUT... recognize that you deserve more and deserve a healthier body. Accepting your body for the way it is only leads to complacency. Love it, but don't accept it as is.

I am putting together some Before and After pictures for a project I'm working on. When I was tasked with finding more "before" pictures, my friends and family all said the same thing: "You didn't like your picture being taken."

Sadly the same is still true for me "after." It just forces me to realize that this will never be done - I should love myself but always strive to improve myself.

Here's some shots I found - enjoy while I cringe!

And for an after, and still improving...