No real change on the weight front, and I'm okay with that.
I've been reading a lot of hate towards people who "eat like rabbits everyday" and never let themselves cheat, etc...
I think it's funny with all the different people in the world (ie: black, white, homosexual, heterosexual, etc.) that these people still think every one fits into the same mold.
I'm a binger, always have been. If I do not keep myself in check every day, I will become that blogger that gets the comment, "Oh, it's such a shame, she gained all her weight back and is now trying again.."
Last Friday I had a binge. I was feeling sad, but the binge wasn't a direct result of some emotional moment. (I'm sure it had something to do with my emotional state, but didn't come directly after an issue.) I decide to let myself have it, I knew I was doing it, so I just decided to write down what I ate. Here is the not so pretty side of an eating disorder:
2 boxes of cereal. (Already half eaten, but still finished off the boxes- Frosted Flakes & Cinnamon Toast Crunch)
2 sleeves of whole wheat crackers
Unknown amount of peanut butter
8 tootsie roll pops
2 cadburry creme eggs
1 crunch chocolate rabbit I found in the back of the cabinet from Easter
2 100 calories packs of something
2 vanilla cappuccinos
I can't even make this stuff up. All total, it was probably over 5000 calories. The next day, the scale said 169, and I was way more depressed.
And then, then I thought of one of my favorite quotes of all time: "Why do we fall, Bruce?" (Batman)...and the answer? "So we can learn to pick ourselves back up again."