I had one of those lovely days yesterday where I was forced to face my past self. Friends & I are getting ready for our annual Halloween party, and we were supposed to cough up pictures from the years past. Lucky for me, a friend of mine forwarded a picture of me @ Halloween two years ago, and I was completely floored again about the way I looked. (I plan on eventually showing you guys, I want to get my current Halloween picture so I can side by side it..anyway..)
A co-worker overheard my conversation about my prior self, and he asked to see the picture. No big deal, right? Unfortunately, in my head, it was a big deal. This particular co-worker has never known me as fat. And because of that, little bells and alarms were going off in my head. I honestly verbalized the following, "You didn't know me this way. I don't want you to know what I used to be." I eventually caved and showed him the picture, but I was still all kinds of self conscious.
I can't decide if that was a logical reasoning or just my stupid woman head crap. Do you ever get nervous about showing your before pictures? Everyone else thinks I should show it proudly like a badge of honor, but honestly it's someone that I was that I am trying to bury.