Thursday, January 31, 2013

Last Day Of January Weigh-In!

Previous: 172.6
Current:   172.0
Loss:           -0.6

Nothing spectacular, but I'll take it. Inching towards the 160's - goal for next month is 167.

I'm reading "The Plan".. and although I normally loathe diet books, I'm finding it has it's good points. I'm into the idea that our food causes inflammation in our bodies, and that effects our health and our weight.

Anyone read it? Tried the plan?

Tuesday, January 29, 2013

What if?

What if doctors starting prescribing nutrition and exercise? What if, instead of pills or surgery, they demanded that their patients try the natural method first? What if, when patients come in for colds and sinus infections, they prescribe going home and resting until it goes away?
These are just random thoughts I’m throwing around, but what if our doctors did a little more to put off responsibility on the patients themselves instead of aiding the pharmaceutical companies that give them free lunch once a week and tickets to the Lakers game?
Obviously, I have been fat a long time. In all those years, although I did have doctors tell me I needed to lose weight, it was more of a fleeting thought – no one ever sat me down and spoke with me about nutrition and exercise. When I began this journey of mine, I had to do the research. I still spend countless hours researching what I can do better.
What if we just start telling people no? Is that violating their Hippocratic oath, or is that just the prescription patients need?

Monday, January 28, 2013


I forgot (again) to weigh-in this morning. I figure it's okay, I'll just weigh Thursday and it'll be the" last day of the first month of 2013 weigh-in." (That's a mouthful.)

This weekend I was back home, sifting through some old pictures. They stopped me in my tracks. Inspiration comes from looking at old pictures and realizing I never, ever, ever want to be there again.

Thursday, January 24, 2013

It is YOUR responsibility.

My good friend Myra posted a link to this article today.
I particularly want to point out the following:

“You are never, ever, ever going to see a change in this country’s obesity until the farm bill is changed,” Dr. Jonny Bowden declared in an interview with The New American. “Our government supports, through the farm bill, every fattening crop on the planet, every high-carbohydrate, processed food.”

Let me make my opinion very clear: It is YOUR job to make YOURSELF healthy. It is not the job of the government. It is not the job of big business. It is not your husband’s job. It is not your parents’ job. It is YOUR job. It is YOUR responsibility.

Do not think you can follow a food pyramid, or a weight-loss program, or a celebrity weight-loss guru and expect them to be completely honest with you. The only person you can trust to make yourself healthy is yourself. Do your own homework. Decide what is best for you.

It is your job. Don’t let the government tell you it is now their job. Trust me, you won’t like the outcome.

Wednesday, January 23, 2013

A Little Motivation

This is from the great folks - it was an update on their Facebook the other day and I thought I'd share...

Monday, January 21, 2013

Weigh-In 1/21/2013

Previous: 175.1
Current:   172.6
Loss:           -2.5

Yeah!~ Back in the saddle again... I am so ready not to see 170's ever again.

So when I get to the fabled land of maintaining, is it reasonable to think I will fluctuate in a ten pound range? Like if my goal is 140's - I should expect to fluctuate between 140-149 and montior my weight that way?

Friday, January 18, 2013

Why does anything still surprise me?

Seriously, folks, you have to check this article out.

They have created a "simple, 20 minute outpatient surgery" that puts a TUBE in your stomach, so that after you eat you can go "release" 30% of your stomach contents. They have found a way for people to have their cake, and eat it too.

What have we come to in this society?

"People without weight problems don't understand. "I don't want to be seated at the table with an empty plate. This way I can eat together with my friends and my family, I can drink my beer or wine if I want to. And then I can just let go of 30 percent.""

I'm sorry, people WITH weight problems don't understand. The sense of entitlement in this country has gone way past crazy.

The direction of this country scares me more and more everyday.

Tuesday, January 15, 2013

Weigh-In 1/15/2013

Previous: 176.3
Current:   175.1
Loss:           -1.2

Nothing spectacular, but definitely moving in the right direction. Onwards and downwards, my friends.

Monday, January 14, 2013

300 Pounds Down

I forgot to weigh this morning. Fail. I went to bed last night at like 6PM, so I know the weekend had drained me. Look for the weigh-in tomorrow, I promise!
Today, I’d like to share 300 pounds down with you. I know a lot of you already read Holly. If you don’t – you need to start reading Holly. She is a true inspiration. Her most recent post really struck home with me, and I encourage you to read through her blog if you have not.
“There is something else about my personality
Which has often contributed in life
To me throwing down the white flag
And giving up the fight
I really do”

This hit home closer that I wanted it to. I have always avoided confrontation. When I was close to 350 pounds, I wanted to just be ignored, that was my goal. I didn’t want to rock the boat, I didn’t want to draw attention to myself, and I didn’t want any confrontation.

“And then I retreat
Back into my hole
Back into my safe place
Back into my recliner with the remote control
Where I imagine myself sinking into the chair
Becoming one with it
Where no one can see me
Where I’m invisible
And the stressors of the world
Can pass me by without harm”

I went to a New Year’s Eve party this year. At this party, a guest that I wasn’t particularly looking forward to seeing was going to be there. I had met this girl a few years back, when we went out to dinner with a group of friends.

At the dinner, she wasn’t outwardly rude to me, but she was rude. She ignored me, and when she did have to listen to something I was saying because I was the only person talking, she gave me the look of loathing that I could not even describe. Leaving the restaurant, she said her goodbyes to everyone but me. This was my first time meeting her, too.

Needless to say I was not looking forward to seeing her again. I dreaded it, actually. And let me be clear – when I showed up at that party she was still the same hateful woman. But I felt pity for her this time, not myself. And it was an amazing moment.

I no longer let other people have control over my feelings and how I feel about myself. Finally, if anyone is rude to me – I don’t first blame myself for being fat & unattractive. Now, I feel pity for them because they are such sad people. I went on to have a great time, even chatted her up as much as I could (I’ve come to realize she’s just a naturally hateful person, haha.)

I am no longer retreating to my hole. I know and value my self worth now, and that is a NSV that is worth its weight in gold.

Thursday, January 10, 2013

Coffee Addiction

I'm starting to really believe my coffee addiction just replaced my food addiction. This is my K-cup collection at work .. I have about the same amount at home.
Lucky for me, I've read in the news that women who drink black coffee have less chance for depression and diabetes!

(The hot chocolates have about 70 calories, so I only get one of those a day as a snack. /sadpandaface)

Wednesday, January 9, 2013

Random Question?

I value, love, and hoard every calorie that enters my body, haha. So with that information, I have a question for you:

You know the 100 calorie pack popcorn bags? Is the 100 calories assuming that every one of the kernels pops and you consume them? Or does the company assume so many kernels will not pop and therefore guesstimate the calories of the ones that do pop at 100?

The same question applies to potatoes. Do calories listed for baked potatoes include the whole potato or just eating the inside?

It's these tough questions that keep me up at night.

Monday, January 7, 2013

Beaver Anal Glands. Enough Said.

Read this article about 8 ingredients that make you want to flee in food terror. After reading it, I did a little bit of research and compiled a list of the foods that contained these additives. It was really eye opening to me. I knew how bad processed foods were for you, but when you see a list of 8 bad food additives, and almost every additive is in processed foods well – it gets you really thinking. In short, avoid the following if at all possible: processed foods, packaged cereals, frozen dairy, frozen meals, and booze.
·         Packaged Cereals
·         Snack foods & Desserts
·         Frozen or Processed meat & poultry
·         Beer!
·         Frozen Dairy Products
·         Fruit Juice
·         Jelly
·         Mayonnaise
·         Processed vegetables
·         Soft drinks
·         Dessert mixes
·         Frozen meals
·         French fries
·         Fast food
·         Packaged Cereals
·         Frozen dairy
Sodium Nitrate
·         Processed meats
Beaver Anal Glands (Castoreum)
·         Frozen Dairy Products
·         Alcohol
·         Desserts
Hydrolyzed Vegetable Protein
·         Processed meats
·         Canned soups
·         Dressings

Weigh-In 1/7/2013

Previous: 176.8
Current:   176.3
Loss:           -0.5

Ha, fail.
I am finding it rough to get back into the swing of things.
You really should have been in my head this week - I was attempting to feed myself all kinds of lame excuses. The prevailing excuse swirling around there was, "maybe I'm at my target goal."
Yeah, no. I've been down to 168, so that's not even close to true.
My binge monster has been out and about the last month or so, that insane need to just EAT LOTS OF SOMETHING. It's emotionally fed, I know that.

Friday, January 4, 2013

Ruby Today

20/20 will have a segment following up on Ruby. If you recall she had a reality show where she attempted to go from 700 pounds to 250.
Ruby was a good show, but it is understandable why the producers canceled the show when they felt like she wasn’t moving towards weight loss anymore. The only thing that bothers me about this particular article is the words “desperate and with no money,” which leads the cynical side of me to believe she is only attempting to lose the weight now because of being broke.
Honestly, anyone that has been dieting for as long as she has – just like I have – know that there is no secret to weight loss. Less in, more out.  So why does she have to contact her old trainers and broadcast this attempt on the Internet? It's probably just the cynic in me, but it gets me thinking.

Thursday, January 3, 2013

New Year, New You!

I’m back. J Mostly.
I’ve had a rough time, still not all that ready to openly discuss it, but I have a good friend who is helping me through. He’s a great person.

On the weight loss note, I have gained a little - back to 176.8 this morning – yikes. I’m not too terribly upset about it, it’s not a major amount that I will have to work for a long time to lose but.. it’s depressing, for sure. I have been back at it since December 31st, and I can’t tell you how much better I feel. Not only because I’m losing weight, but just energy wise and the way my body behaves is so much better.

The fact that I’m back to a normal routine is also my friend.  I’m back at work, I’m back to the normal daily grind, and it helps my diet and exercise. I’m also back to reading my friends! However, I’m not sure I’ll make it through what I’ve missed – so forgive me. But I’m definitely reading now.