Binges.

Previous: 161.4
Current:   161.8
Gain:            +.4

No real change on the weight front, and I'm okay with that.

I've been reading a lot of hate towards people who "eat like rabbits everyday" and never let themselves cheat, etc...

I think it's funny with all the different people in the world (ie: black, white, homosexual, heterosexual, etc.) that these people still think every one fits into the same mold.

I'm a binger, always have been. If I do not keep myself in check every day, I will become that blogger that gets the comment, "Oh, it's such a shame, she gained all her weight back and is now trying again.."

Last Friday I had a binge. I was feeling sad, but the binge wasn't a direct result of some emotional moment. (I'm sure it had something to do with my emotional state, but didn't come directly after an issue.) I decide to let myself have it, I knew I was doing it, so I just decided to write down what I ate. Here is the not so pretty side of an eating disorder:

2 boxes of cereal. (Already half eaten, but still finished off the boxes- Frosted Flakes & Cinnamon Toast Crunch)
2 sleeves of whole wheat crackers
Unknown amount of peanut butter
8 tootsie roll pops
2 cadburry creme eggs
1 crunch chocolate rabbit I found in the back of the cabinet from Easter
2 100 calories packs of something
2 vanilla cappuccinos

I can't even make this stuff up. All total, it was probably over 5000 calories. The next day, the scale said 169, and I was way more depressed.

And then, then I thought of one of my favorite quotes of all time: "Why do we fall, Bruce?" (Batman)...and the answer? "So we can learn to pick ourselves back up again."

W.I.D.T.H.

A small post (credit for the title given to Jack.. :)) to show something that boggles my mind. The bathing suit.

And for the record - I enjoyed myself this weekend. I ate (and drank - as you can tell from the pina colada sitting there) that I shouldn't have. BUT...come Sunday...it was back to business. I ended up gaining 1/2 pound, some I think may be water retention but... well worth it. I enjoyed myself.

The picture on the left was taken at a very private beach house. The picture on the right was taken at a hotel Vegas-style pool party. My how times have changed, and I love it.

I should start a porn blog.

What the hell is up with that? Hahahaha! I am doing it all wrong, I should give up the weight loss blogging for porn blogging. You filthy animals! (And I like it!)

Avert your eyes boys, TMI question/post

Background: Since I have lost this weight, my cycle is on schedule. 25 days in between each, on the dot. My last cycle started and ended on May 27-June 1st. I am scheduled to start again on June 21st.

In preparation for my 10K, I have been ramping up my exercise the last two weeks. I have exercised every day, either strength training or running, sometimes both the same day. For these last two weeks, I have been spotting regularly. Nothing major, just notice it in the bathroom. Mostly it's darker color, sometimes it's red.

Is this a normal thing with exercising every day?

How Does the Government See Me?

NORMAL!

Weigh-In 6/10/13

Previous: 162.6
Current:   161.4
Loss:           -1.2

So, so, so, so, so close to the 150's decade. It will definitely happen this month.

So I'm watching Extreme Weight Loss (on DVR) last night, and I see the girl that ran the marathon at 200 pounds. Now I wanna suck it up and run at least a half marathon. I love that show.

Outside confirmation that it's worth it...

I met a friend for coffee, she saw a friend of hers, and he texted her this afterwards:

This always increases one's swag and gives outside confirmation that this WHOLE process..is worth it. Stick with it.

Have you had gastric bypass?

At work, I had a meeting late yesterday with a perfect lovely woman. We were discussing business, and all of a sudden she busted out, “Did you have gastric bypass?” I think my chin must have hit the table in front of me; I was definitely rendered speechless for a few seconds.

When I regained my thought process, I told her, “No, I didn’t – but it’s funny you mention it, I have lost 180 pounds. How did you know?”

To which she replied, “Oh, I can tell through your neck and arms. Your neck is thin. (I have no idea still what this means.)” She herself had gastric bypass in 2001.

The really strange part is, I almost feel offended? It’s a little bit how I used to feel when someone asked how far along I was. It is definitely the first time someone that I didn’t know in my former life could spot the fact that I’ve had massive weight loss.

June 1st Weigh-In

Previous: 165.6
Current:   162.6
Loss:           -3.0

I can't believe it is already June, this year is really flying by. 3 pounds gone since my last official weigh-in, 177.4 pounds down, almost seeing the light of the 150's. Goal is somewhere in the 140's, actually probably 140, as I want to see 200 pounds lost.

I honestly don't have much to talk about these days - my eating and exercise has just become every day. Every. single. day.