What was a typical day?

Thanks, Shannon! I actually was sitting around the other day thinking about what my typical eating day looked like. On any given day, a normal day would have looked like this:

Choice of Breakfast: 2 Pop-tarts with a full glass of 2% milk, 2 chocolate chip Eggo waffles covered in peanut butter and syrup with milk, or 4 chicken mini’s from Chick-Fil-A with hashbrowns and a large sweet tea

                                               

Choice of Lunch:  I *always* ate lunch out. Every, single, day. We are talking usually a hamburger, pizza, fries, always sweet tea. More frequently I would go to a restaurant at lunch and still have appetizer, salad, meal.

Choice of Dinner:  I would guess 4/7 dinners were out.  Always included: Appetizer, Salad, Bread, Meal, Dessert.

                                               
If dinner were at home, we would be talking Hamburger Helper, Frozen Meals, (you know that frozen lasagna you can get?) generally anything easy.

Choice of Snack: Anything I could get my hands on, literally. Candy from work, junk from a passing store, junk from my cabinet. Movies would include a large drink, large popcorn, and king-size candy. I would go to dinner and then to the movies, and still I would eat that. 

And as if that wasn't enough, there were many times I would stop

in to the grocery store and grab a 20 ounce Pepsi and a 3 pack of

Zingers as a snack. A SNACK, PEEPS. Road trips included Pepsi,

Zingers, and Doritos.

I’m guessing, especially since my weight was 340, that I was eating about 3500 calories a day. Dropping to 1200 calories was VERY hard, it still is. It took a long time to learn what would fill me up and keep myself full. I had times when I thought I was a hopeless case. When I finally got myself into a routine, it became a lot easier. Today it’s like …well, it’s my life. It’s just what I do, what’s normal.

I will be totally honest here –it is becoming very hard for me to tell myself that I am doing ENOUGH. When I was younger my mother put me on fen/phen. I would eat an orange a day. That’s it. I became anorexic, and when they stopped prescribing the drugs I had one hell of a meltdown. I’m having an ongoing war with myself about keeping my calories at 1200 per day, not continuing to lower my goal weight, etc. It just goes to prove that it is all in my head – I just have to keep in under control.