(Late) Monday Weigh-In

Yesterday's Weight: 263.8

It. Is. Coming. OFF!

13.8 pounds until my next progress pictures.

Do you every wonder?

Do you ever wonder even if you lose all the weight, you'll still feel fat?

I don't think I feel any different about myself than when I did at 335.

I still look in the mirror and see what I've always seen.

Diet is going great, actually, though. I feel great, too. I think it has something to do with the feeling of control finally.

I *really* want to be sharing my next progress pictures by the end of September.

I'm Done.

I’m done.

No, not with weight loss, but I am done with what I’m doing. I have hit a wall, smack in the face, and I realize that I’m not happy losing the way I am. I’ve thought a LOT about it – a lot. I’m losing 4-5 pounds a month.

In total, I had 160 pounds to lose. And that was just if I wanted to get to the high end of “normal”, at 175 for my height. Actually I think it may be 170 that I should hit. At 5 pounds a month, that would be 32 continuous months. Only, this hasn’t been continuous. I’ve been at this since January of 2010, and I’m at 267. I’ve lost 68 pounds in, let’s say, 20 months. That’s less than 4 pounds a month, and that means it’s going to be even longer than 32 months.

Why? Why would I wait to be 2 ½ years older before I lose weight?

So I’m re-vamping, with the help of a dear friend. And I’m getting my fat ass up in the mornings at 5:30, and walking for 30 minutes. And I’m getting my fat ass back out at night, and walking for an hour.

I can worry about maintenance when it comes. I need this crap off me now, I hate it. I hate this fat more than anything hunger can ever do to me.

Weigh-In Monday

Today's Weight: 272.6

Yuck, a loss of 2.6 for two weeks. Ah, well. At least it is a loss.

New pictures at 250! I am ready to get there.

Have a great day!

I suck at this scheduled posting thing.

So I was out of town last week on business, and I though I scheduled a post to come out on Monday. Evidently I fail at that. Anyway, here are the pics. Note the FIRST picture is the new one, the SECOND is the old one. I can see it, I think I'm losing a butt I didn't have to begin with!

Now if I took a poll, everyone would still say both are "Fat." However, if I asked which was fatter, it would be the second picture! YAY! haha :) Small victories.

My day's beef.

I have the pictures in my camera, now to just find the time to upload. I really was surprised to see the difference; I didn’t figure there would be much visible difference. Of course, I have bought new bras in between as well, that doesn’t hurt. (I’m a recently converted believer to Cacique!)

It is time to move on to today’s beef. Normally, I rarely get offended by anything. Bust out the women jokes, the fat jokes, the white jokes; I can take it. Bust my ass for not sticking to my diet – I need that, it doesn’t offend me. But for some reason – and I may just be hormonal – a post on Twitter by a colleague just ran all over me yesterday.

“Fat girls could solve all their problems if they tried as hard to fit into running shoes as they do skinny jeans.”

First off, jack-wad, just about every pair of jeans I own look like skinny jeans, because I’m fat. It is hard to find clothes that fit right when you are large.

Secondly, it runs all over me that you assume that all my problems are going to be magically solved if I would just lose weight. Tell me – is your skinny ass free of problems? Is that the magic cure-all to everything, just get skinny?

Thirdly… okay the only thirdly I can think of is to say Eff you. It is harder to lose weight than just about anything else I can think of; I have to be around my vice each and every day. I am bombarded with marketing ads that tell me I need to eat. I’m surrounded by fast food stores on every corner. I have to eat to live.

Okay, rant over. J

Weigh-In Monday

Today's Weight: 275.2

Break out the camera! :) I made it to 275, finally. I will be taking some progress pictures tonight, and I think I'll take my measurements so I can update those as the rest of the year progresses as well.

I am excited!