Regrowing my fingernails.

Bear with me:  this will most likely be a long, rambling post. It was also divulge how crazy my thoughts  can be, as they are on a general basis.

So I’m getting ready this morning, and I’m cutting my fingernails – which gets me to thinking – why were our fingernails designed to just keep growing ? What’s up with that, God? Knowing full well we would not have the capacity to cut them, why create them so they kept growing?

Which, got me to thinking, obviously they break by the time they get too long. That managed to quell my inquisitiveness for a nanosecond, and then I realized that the people who grow their fingernails to World Record length really put some major effort into those things.

And then it hit me – those fingernail people – the ones everyone gawks at, takes pictures of, makes fun of, and everything else – those people are just like what I want to be. No, I don’t want to grow my fingernails to world record length. But I do want their dedication. That takes some serious  dedication, people.

So basically in this point in my weight loss, I’d say I’ve broken a fingernail. And while I still have 9 other fingernails that are perfectly fine, I know I still have to start back from the beginning. I am happily back in my routine, chugging along, and I’m at 174. It’s going to be a long year, but it is what it is and I have the dedication.

And, because you know I had to give you some kind of visual to this craziness...:

My face is on fire.

So along with my normal weight loss goals for 2014, I decided to include trying to keep my youth, or what's left of it. I decided to start a skin care regimen for this year, completing at least 8 weeks of the same routine every day. 

I used a nice gift card to Ulta and bought the products I thought would work best for me, so we will see how that goes. Tonight was my first night, and although I won't share the lovely before pictures with no make-up, I will say that post application of eye cream, night cream, and night serum... my face is on fire. It has been for the past few minutes. 

I'm chalking that up to "it's working." Does anyone have any tips/tricks for healthy, younger looking skin?

Radio Edit!

Radio interview complete!

It wasn't anything too major, a local public radio, but I was nervous to say the least. In August of last year, I completed an interview with the Huffington Post, and the local station got wind of it.

You'd think by now I would be accustomed to talking about losing weight, but I'm always afraid I'll come off high mighty weight-loss guru, which I am not, but I do want to be able to give advice to help people. It is a fine line I tread.

Weight staying strong at 175, a little disappointing as I thought I was good last week. As long as it is not moving up, I am content - I could be more content if it would go down, lol.

I am working on reading up on all your blogs! It's a lot of backing reading, bear with me. :)

It's Been A While!

Long time no see!

It has been a crazy last half of 2014 for me, and I am sorry that I dropped off the face of the earth!

It started in July with a mud run, and it ended at Jan 1 when I realized I am back up to 175.

It doesn't disappoint me that I gained a little back, I certainly enjoyed myself through the holidays. But as every person who is committed to keeping off the weight, it's back to the old grind. I'm actually looking forward to getting back to the routine, I have missed it. Routine is what keeps my diet/health in check - and the holidays like to screw around with that routine.

I have a more to update you on the goings on between July and Decemeber, but I am a bit strapped for time at the moment. I was popping in to download some before/after pics of myself (I have a radio interview on Monday!) and thought it was time to revisit the blog since I'm refocused on getting back to normal.

Binges.

Previous: 161.4
Current:   161.8
Gain:            +.4

No real change on the weight front, and I'm okay with that.

I've been reading a lot of hate towards people who "eat like rabbits everyday" and never let themselves cheat, etc...

I think it's funny with all the different people in the world (ie: black, white, homosexual, heterosexual, etc.) that these people still think every one fits into the same mold.

I'm a binger, always have been. If I do not keep myself in check every day, I will become that blogger that gets the comment, "Oh, it's such a shame, she gained all her weight back and is now trying again.."

Last Friday I had a binge. I was feeling sad, but the binge wasn't a direct result of some emotional moment. (I'm sure it had something to do with my emotional state, but didn't come directly after an issue.) I decide to let myself have it, I knew I was doing it, so I just decided to write down what I ate. Here is the not so pretty side of an eating disorder:

2 boxes of cereal. (Already half eaten, but still finished off the boxes- Frosted Flakes & Cinnamon Toast Crunch)
2 sleeves of whole wheat crackers
Unknown amount of peanut butter
8 tootsie roll pops
2 cadburry creme eggs
1 crunch chocolate rabbit I found in the back of the cabinet from Easter
2 100 calories packs of something
2 vanilla cappuccinos

I can't even make this stuff up. All total, it was probably over 5000 calories. The next day, the scale said 169, and I was way more depressed.

And then, then I thought of one of my favorite quotes of all time: "Why do we fall, Bruce?" (Batman)...and the answer? "So we can learn to pick ourselves back up again."

W.I.D.T.H.

A small post (credit for the title given to Jack.. :)) to show something that boggles my mind. The bathing suit.

And for the record - I enjoyed myself this weekend. I ate (and drank - as you can tell from the pina colada sitting there) that I shouldn't have. BUT...come Sunday...it was back to business. I ended up gaining 1/2 pound, some I think may be water retention but... well worth it. I enjoyed myself.

The picture on the left was taken at a very private beach house. The picture on the right was taken at a hotel Vegas-style pool party. My how times have changed, and I love it.

I should start a porn blog.

What the hell is up with that? Hahahaha! I am doing it all wrong, I should give up the weight loss blogging for porn blogging. You filthy animals! (And I like it!)